Here Comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

The Walk Back Home

Today, I got on the wrong bus back home and ended up in some random housing area. My smart ass decides to get down at the nearest bus stop and try to get another bus back home. Looking at the time, my smart ass decides to walk home instead of taking the bus back from some random housing area. It was a 1.5 hour walk back home (yeah i know, kinda stupid of me to do so). While walking back home, i took some time and reflect what have i been doing through out this year and what has happen to me in this year.

Achievement for this year: nothing
Done anything great this year: nothing
What have i learn so far: nothing

NOTHING! thats what i have been doing through out the year, NOTHING!

But then again when i think back, there are actually some interesting events which happened to me this year.

1) Got cheated on
2) Got taken advantage of
3) Got fucking drunk at a club (lol, fucking embarrassed)
4) Broke up
5) Lost a really close friend
6) Quit my job which i sacrifice so much for
7) Found the new love of my life (I LOVE YOU!)
8) Found a new job (starting to love my job ^.^)
9) Something which should not happen, HAPPENED!
10) Something fucked up happen (we shall not talk about it)

Sometimes, the past never fails to haunt me. Just having the thought about it sometimes makes my blood boils, but yet again no one is to blame but myself. But now, i'm starting to feel like i'm the luckiest guy alive because GOD (thank you) send me an angel to be there for me and take care of me. I've learn to not take certain things in life too seriously because sometimes, you'll only end up hurting yourself by doing so. The secret to it, a quote from a movie "life's to short to get pissed off at all the time" (American History X). Hopefully next year will be a better year for me and those around me. To all my friends out there, thank you for sharing your love and care for me, i really appreciate it and may GOD bless you and your family.

My weekends :)

This is why i love my baby to bits cause every weekend she buys me lunch which comes with a surprise snack, I love you baby!



one of my all time favorite food "chicken rice"
YUM YUM!



and not to forget my all time favorite chocolate "TWIX"

Thanks baby, i <3 you

Best Dinner Ever :)

I was to touched by what you did for me,
Tears almost rolled out of my eyes,
Honestly from the bottom of my heart,
That was the best dinner that i have had after such a long time,
And for your information ITS FUCKING GOOD!!!!!



Thanks for the wonderful dinner baby <3

The First Time For Everything

Today is the first day that I didn't get to see my baby, so i decided to make something for her

Lately i've been starting to feel like i'm truly blessed,
I'm blessed with such good friends (yeah you guys know who you are)
I'm blessed with siblings who care for each other
I'm blessed with the best mother in the world (I LOVE YOU MOM)
I'm blessed with the coolest dad in the world (I LOVE YOU Too DAD)
And the best part, I'm blessed with such a lovely girlfriend who is such an angel (Yes! you)
Come to think of it, I'm actually happy with the way my life is now and couldn't wish for anything more. :)

The Adventures of Abdominal Boy and his sidekick Princess Steve

So finally Abdominal Boy has left on a long journey to pursue for his dreams.
Suddenly its just feels so empty and quiet.
All those football matches that we use to watch together,
All those times when we use to kill the opposing team together(dota/cs),
All those shouting while playing badminton, futsal and squalipington (combination of squash, ping pong, volley ball, badminton),
All those songs that we use to sing along with the ipod,
All those car accident that we use to chase after,
All those fun times we use to spend together has finally come to an end.
Now its time for you to go forward and do us all proud.
Sorry for all the wrongs that i did to you and thanks for being such a good friend all this while, you will go far in life my brother.
The Adventures of Abdominal Boy and his sidekick Princess Steve has come to an end (for now).
So long my dear friend Daryl, may GOD always bless you and your family.

Its been quite a while since i last felt such happiness.
Happiness, i would say is the best thing in the world,
The ultimate gold in one's life
The cure for all diseases,
The best that anyone could get.
These pass few months has been quite intense for me,
Taking those few months off to find my inner self,
To find out who i really am and what am i capable of,
After doing some soul searching i finally found what i really needed,
LOVE.....
Everyone needs love, it brings out the real you
It brings out the laughter and joy that is kept deep down inside of you.
It doesn't matter what type of love or who it is from,
As long as love still exist inside a person, there is hope

If love comes your way,
Don't be afraid, don't turn away from it,
Unlock the box your heart's encased,
Let roam freely like a marching parade,
What we have is great,
I hope it wont change,
Don't stop now i beg....
If I can be saved,
Please show me the way,
Help me help myself before its too late,
Yeah I know I'm not good enough.....

Langkawi

Just came back from my trip to Langkawi with the coolest and most fun friends i have.
Only one word for Langkawi, awsome!
The sun, the sand, the sea, the booze, the music, the people
Sigh i just love!
But sad to say it was a farewell trip for a friend of mine,
A good friend, a brother, a family member,
All i have to say to you is that "what ever i have done wrong to you in the past, i'm really sorry, i wish you all the best and i hope we do keep in touch, i'm going to miss you my brother (66D)"
Fro Bro For LIFE!!!!

LANG FUCKING KAWI!!!!!!!
HERE I COME, WOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I guess its finally time that i made up my mind on what to do next.
After such a long thought, reflecting back what have i done so far in life, still i'm going back to basic. Back to the books, assignments and exams.
YES! back to college.
Someone once told me "you are never too old to go back to studying" i guess its true.
Its been a blast taking such a long time off studying, working several different jobs, meeting new people, having a taste of the working life, no doubt its a tough life.
Everytime i think about it, the more it makes me wanna go back to studying.
Life as a student is so much more fun and easy compare to a working life.
Those who are reading this post, if you are still studying, my advice to you is do it all the way.
Enjoy it to the max while you can, don't be in a rush to grow up cause there is no turning back.

time sure passes by damn fast,
very soon it will be 2010,
sigh..... just another year

It seems like only yesterday we were all newly introduced to each other,
But for that short period of time, it feels like we have known each other for the rest of our life,
You guys were always there for me, stood by me, supporting each other
A family we were, a family we will always be,
Good Luck Guys and all the best!
See you guys again in the near future.

I gave it all i could but its not enough,
Well i guess this would be my last goodbye
All those promises i broke,
All those hearts that i shattered,
All those tears i made you cried,
All those time i made you wasted,
All those pain i made you feel,
My journey with you has to come to an end,
A piece of my heart, you will still be,
Forever and ever

If only the words could come out of my mouth,
If only i have the courage to approach you,
If only i could give you a shoulder to lean onto,
If only i could..... but i can't.

This sucks! why do people have to take something which doesn't belong to them?
Why do people have to make life difficult for others?
Why must people say things to make others feel like shit?
Why why why?

Waiting, waiting, and still waiting.....
Hoping that one day, one fine day it will come to me

WOW! I'm getting older, time sure flies really fast. Oh well, thats life......

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Just another fragment of life

Well, its all over now for me, after a long, committed and sacrificial phase, it all came crumbling down like an avalanche. All the trust, hopes, cares and love have all gone to waste just by one stupid mistake, thats right ONE STUPID MISTAKE!

Now, i admit that its not easy to start all over again, i don't know how to love anymore, don't know how to care anymore, don't know how to trust anymore, don't know what to feel anymore. I'm just so numb now.

Friends who were there for me, i would like to take this opportunity to say thanks for the support. You guys keep telling me to move on and find a new ONE but the problem is that i'm afraid, afraid that it will all happen again, afraid of getting hurt again.

Everyday i look back at the scar, it seems like its going deeper and deeper. The best part, there is nothing i can do to get rid of it. Maybe its because i don't want to get rid of it, maybe its because i want to remember it, maybe i still want to remember about you, maybe just maybe deep down inside of me, i still have feelings for you. Maybe, just maybe.