2010

The day started out pretty much casual until a phone call came, my thoughts were running wild, beyond my control but somehow I manage to keep myself calm. The night before was great, had friends from Malaysia came down and we had fun at Zouk SG. It was a really great night so far, on of the best since I came to this shit hole. Too bad for me I had to be at work the next day otherwise the fun would have lasted till the next following day. But to my surprise it wasn't all that bad at work today, work load was little, finish the job quite early and highlight of the day, saw someone's foot got crush by a pallets weighing atleast 300kg. It's was totally random for me to be there when it happened. Was on the phone talking to the person I love, all of a sudden some guy just scream so loud and when I turn towards where the voice was coming from I saw a guy on the ground and a few other fellows were helping him to remove the pallets off his feet. Gosh that must have hurt like a bitch. I bet his leg was broken or crush cause he wasn't wearing any safety boots. I know it's kinda ironic but somehow rather I wish that I was that guy under that pallet at that moment....

My Lonely Little Blog

It really has been a while since i last visited this page. Well i guess i just have nothing much to rant about these days. Maybe i really don't. Even now i don't have anything to rant about in this blog. Been kinda busy with work these few weeks to the extend that i don't have time for myself or to go back home to JB. Yeah i really miss home so much, i miss home cooked food so much but you know what they say "a man got to do what a man got to do" well at least the company is nice enough to give me a box of mooncake which i don't even eat, LOL. Anyways, the job has been alright though, so far so good, no stress or what so ever, just the working schedule kinda sucks. But i can't blame them cause of the flights. Baby has been flying around the world more often now and i hardly get to see her now days but its alright cause thats what she does, thats her job :) Oh ya, and another thing that i'm actually proud about is that amazingly i smoke and consume alcohol wayyyyyyyyy less than i use to :D HORRAY!!!!!! Does it mean that i'm actually changing to be a better person or is it because i'm just sick of smoking and drinking already? hmmm NAH! i don't think so, LOL. Well if everything goes well, by the end of year 2012 i should be able to at least afford to get a place of my own, a place to call MY own house which I bought with MY own hard earn cash! muahahahahahahaha, well i hope i really can achieve it (keeping my fingers crossed), thats all for now i guess, oh yeah here is my new favorite quote "chao outside motherf*****s"

Loneliness Knows me by Name

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of my dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thoughts in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a the never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

A New Chapter of My Life

Its been quite a while since i last written something on this blog. Well wanna know whats new? Here it goes. I got a new job. Yup no more Nasty Inc, no more Jetstar. I left my life in KL, the big city for a new beginning. Now, i got a job with China Airlines (a Taiwanese Company) as a cargo agent. Yeah i know it sounds cool but its not. I'm now based in the land of the Merlion, hell yes! Singapore!!!!

The job is a totally new thing to me, coming from an event base background with no airline or cargo background at all. Its kinda hard at first but i guess i'll get the hang of it soon, well at least i hope so :P
All my colleague erm... well let me put it this way, Majority are old enough to be my father or my grandfather. I'm the youngest in my working environment, so its kinda hard to blend in with them. Right now i'm still under study with my mentor (Eric Lai). One thing for sure, he is a cool old man. He allows me to end my work early and teaches me the short cut way to get things done around there. So far i have nothing to complain about my job except for the shifts. Other than that, everything is pretty OK.

The year 2010 huh? so far, i would say its been a pretty good year for me. Found the love of my life (YES its you Eleen Ang <3), got a pretty decent job, earning in a currency which is higher than ringgit, don't have to pay income tax, so far so good.

Well sometimes i kinda miss my old life, back when i was in KL, the friends in KL, the culture, the fun and laughters but i guess this road that i have now choose is for the better of me. Maybe one day, one fine day i will be successful enough to start something of my own and go back to my homeland, start a family, grow old and enjoy life without having to worry about anything but for now, i'll just have to concentrate on what i have now and appreciate it. Thats all for now, until next post, see ya ;)

I HATE YOU!!!!!

Why must you come back into my life? Why?
I was really happy when you were gone, vanish, out of my life
But now, you came back and just destroyed everything all over again
The pain you put me through is so sickening
Can't you just fuck off forever and ever?
Just "Leave Fu Chao Alone"
It seems like this time i'll just have to take things seriously
Yeah, i'll just have to go seek treatment and get rid of you once and for all
YES! YOU! I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU MY STUPID FUCKING SINUS DISEASE!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!

I'm Sorry

I know that we have been arguing alot lately over small stupid things. Some people say that fighting in a relationship makes the relationship stronger. But i'm just not into all this fighting/violence thing. I hate it when people argue (speaking through experience) cause something bad always happens during an argument. I wish i can stop arguing with you my love. I want us to have a healthy and happy relationship. Well i made a promise to myself that from this day onwards i will not argue with my sayang anymore no matter what the issue is about. Sayang, if you are reading this, i want you to know that i'm sorry for all the past arguments that we have had. I love you sayang :)

I MISS YOU

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

Dreams

Lately i have been having lots of weird and bad dreams.
Some of them doesn't make sense, some of them are just fucked up.
What is happening to me?
So many questions yet so little answers
What should i do? sigh.....

Random Rant

Sometime, the more you think about it, the more it gets to your mind. As i sit here counting the days go by, i can finally feel that its getting closer and closer. Next thing you know, its just around the corner. People always say that if you love something so much, you got to learn to set it free. Is it really true or is it just a way for them to go without looking back with regrets? It seems that in life, one can't control one's destiny. Some people may say that its all part of THE PLAN, but what plan is it? Who came up with THE PLAN? Can i not follow THE PLAN? Life is kinda sad if you actually think about it. We study so we can get a job. We get a job so we can buy things. We buy things cause we wanna be accepted by society. I guess it finally hit me straight in the face now. Time to wake up and smell the coffee.

The Start Of A New Chapter

YES! its the year 2010
New year, New Resolution, well thats what most of us say
2009 was quite a bad year for me though
So much has happen..... sigh

This time around, its gonna be different,
This time its gonna be a blast!
This time, i'm gonna take control of my fate!
This time its all out or nothing at all
This time lets see whats gonna happen next!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!