Dreams

Lately i have been having lots of weird and bad dreams.
Some of them doesn't make sense, some of them are just fucked up.
What is happening to me?
So many questions yet so little answers
What should i do? sigh.....

Random Rant

Sometime, the more you think about it, the more it gets to your mind. As i sit here counting the days go by, i can finally feel that its getting closer and closer. Next thing you know, its just around the corner. People always say that if you love something so much, you got to learn to set it free. Is it really true or is it just a way for them to go without looking back with regrets? It seems that in life, one can't control one's destiny. Some people may say that its all part of THE PLAN, but what plan is it? Who came up with THE PLAN? Can i not follow THE PLAN? Life is kinda sad if you actually think about it. We study so we can get a job. We get a job so we can buy things. We buy things cause we wanna be accepted by society. I guess it finally hit me straight in the face now. Time to wake up and smell the coffee.

The Start Of A New Chapter

YES! its the year 2010
New year, New Resolution, well thats what most of us say
2009 was quite a bad year for me though
So much has happen..... sigh

This time around, its gonna be different,
This time its gonna be a blast!
This time, i'm gonna take control of my fate!
This time its all out or nothing at all
This time lets see whats gonna happen next!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

Here Comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

The Walk Back Home

Today, I got on the wrong bus back home and ended up in some random housing area. My smart ass decides to get down at the nearest bus stop and try to get another bus back home. Looking at the time, my smart ass decides to walk home instead of taking the bus back from some random housing area. It was a 1.5 hour walk back home (yeah i know, kinda stupid of me to do so). While walking back home, i took some time and reflect what have i been doing through out this year and what has happen to me in this year.

Achievement for this year: nothing
Done anything great this year: nothing
What have i learn so far: nothing

NOTHING! thats what i have been doing through out the year, NOTHING!

But then again when i think back, there are actually some interesting events which happened to me this year.

1) Got cheated on
2) Got taken advantage of
3) Got fucking drunk at a club (lol, fucking embarrassed)
4) Broke up
5) Lost a really close friend
6) Quit my job which i sacrifice so much for
7) Found the new love of my life (I LOVE YOU!)
8) Found a new job (starting to love my job ^.^)
9) Something which should not happen, HAPPENED!
10) Something fucked up happen (we shall not talk about it)

Sometimes, the past never fails to haunt me. Just having the thought about it sometimes makes my blood boils, but yet again no one is to blame but myself. But now, i'm starting to feel like i'm the luckiest guy alive because GOD (thank you) send me an angel to be there for me and take care of me. I've learn to not take certain things in life too seriously because sometimes, you'll only end up hurting yourself by doing so. The secret to it, a quote from a movie "life's to short to get pissed off at all the time" (American History X). Hopefully next year will be a better year for me and those around me. To all my friends out there, thank you for sharing your love and care for me, i really appreciate it and may GOD bless you and your family.

My weekends :)

This is why i love my baby to bits cause every weekend she buys me lunch which comes with a surprise snack, I love you baby!



one of my all time favorite food "chicken rice"
YUM YUM!



and not to forget my all time favorite chocolate "TWIX"

Thanks baby, i <3 you